We are falling in love more and more…
Our hearts, falling in love with her heart. And not just her physical heart.
As we watched her little heart today at the fetal ECHO just flicker away, all the little intricacies of her heart, so detailed, and functioning just so, we couldn’t help but just smile and our love for her, increase all the more.
Sitting and watching in awe as the technician moved the probe from side to side, Dan gently says “how can someone say that is not a life?” Our baby girl moving from side to side, putting her hands up by her head, packing a full punch on the probe, kicking as if to say “get this thing off of me”, a girl so full of life!
Our hearts, so full of love for her! Being able to watch her little body and heart move just so, and her little heart working just so, so that the rest of her body can grow, I can’t come up with words. And her heart is functioning at a completely normal level! The doctor sees no congenital heart issues at this point, and a heart that is as healthy as can be! Her coronary arteries are too small to see if she has the issue I had, but her heart function says that everything is perfectly fine. What a blessing and we are just so thankful to God, as HE is the One who is behind the handiwork of her heart. To think that God is making her heart beat at 158 beats per minute, so that everything else functions the way it should, is just absolutely mind-boggling.
For 1 1/2 hours, we were able to watch our daughter just live life. For 1 1/2 hours we were able to share with the technician the journey God has taken us on. We literally could not believe all that we saw today – and yes, we were so thankful that we had this appointment! It was well worth the drive and well worth the time it took – the time flew by, as we just watched her and our hearts growing fonder and fonder!
We also were able to see that yes, she IS a girl :). I told the technician that I just wanted to be reassured again! Oh how I just can’t WAIT to hold her, love on her, kiss her, and tell her how beautiful she is! I am sure she is getting used to our voices as we talk to her a LOT, but little does she know how ready these arms are for her! Though like I said before, of course, we’d love for her to stay in there for awhile yet.
My heart, at ease, knowing that thus far, I haven’t passed on anything to her. Granted my heart doctors do not feel my heart condition was a genetic issue, but I just feel better knowing that our baby girl doesn’t have the issues I did. We are so thankful too, for technology! As we were talking with our technician, she mentioned that because of tests like this, it has significantly lowered the number of blue babies having to be flown to children’s hospitals because the issues are caught early on. That means they can get the care they need as soon as they are born because they were born in the right hospital. That is why we are so willing to do what the doctors feel is best for both myself and our baby. Whatever it takes to ensure health for the both of us, we are willing to accept! And of course, anytime we get a chance to see our baby girl, we are going to jump on it!
So, please praise God with us as we are just one step closer to having a healthy child. We see this journey as steps and we are just taking it one step at a time, hoping that the last step is us holding a healthy baby girl in our arms. We try to not take any moment for granted because we know each step is such a miracle!
A baby girl filled with so much life!