I have always dreamed of writing a book. Back when I started blogging, I had a bucket list of things I wanted to do someday, one of them being writing a book. I always thought maybe it would be a devotional or something of the sorts. Never did I imagine writing a book about my own story.
I must say, I think writing a devotional would be easier, but I also know that God had called me to this. When Dan and I were on our “babymoon” in the Florida Keys in October 2014, due to the tropical storm that was passing through, I had some time to think about the book. I started to copy and paste blog posts from years prior, into a large word document. Gathering pieces of our story, that maybe one day, would make it into a book. Well, the reason I chose that time to start piecing it all together was because I thought that after Mazy was born, my “story” was done. What I thought would go into a book, at least the most interesting parts, would be complete.
Well, Mazy was born 3 years ago and much has happened since then. For some reason (God-ordained), I just couldn’t seem to tie up all the loose ends. The end chapter just wasn’t making sense to me. Now I know why. God wanted more in that book. So, over the past year, I have been working on writing what is now a story about God’s grace.
A story that I have titled:
This title did not just come to me. It was months and months in the making, but I knew God already had a title to it, so we just had to be patient to hear from Him. Then one day it just came. Same with the subtitle.
I decided to self-publish since it is very hard to get your name into the publishing world, unless you are famous. I am the least of them, so I figured I would try my hand at self-publishing. No publisher would probably take the time to even look at a message from me, even if I tried I think! It has been quite the journey in learning how to self-publish, since that was an avenue I had never ventured down. So I’ll say this. If you EVER want to self-publish, let me know. I have learned a great deal along the way, and by far I am no expert, but am completely willing to lend a hand in helping others follow their call to write a book!
Finding time to write sometimes was a challenge, but after Mazy went to bed, that was “my time.” I have poured my heart into this book and though I know it will not be perfect, I know that God will use it however He sees fit. I just wanted to answer the call and I will let Him take the rest.
It was not an easy book to write. Thinking, working through, and pondering some parts of our story are still difficult to do without tears. Sometimes the feelings are so raw, but I can truly say, the pain of our past is gone. Is it still fresh and life-changing? Absolutely. But by God’s grace, He has freed me from the burden of pain that it once carried. This story starts from the very beginning with my childhood and concludes with life up until the spring of 2018. It’s a fresh account and I know there will always be more to the story, but I feel “now” is the time to end the last chapter. Though it’s not the end of the book! God is still writing my story. Just maybe one day there will be a sequel!
We decided to hire a professional book cover designer. I attempted to do it on my own, but was never satisfied with the finished product. After doing a LOT of research, I ended up finding a website that was a platform for designers to display their services and work on, called Reedsy.com. I ended up finding the perfect person to design the cover and I could not be more pleased. Hands down I would hire him again. He took the time to get to know me, the story, and what type of person I am, all in hopes of designing a cover that was a reflection of me. After receiving 6 cover designs and wrestling with which one to choose, we ended up going with the most simple design, but a design that defines our story to a “T.” So…here’s the cover:
Seeing this cover made it so real and yes, I got a little teary-eyed. As much as they say “don’t judge a book by it’s cover,” let’s be honest, we all do (most of the time). In choosing this cover, we wanted it to be something that anyone would feel comfortable picking up. From a teenager to someone in their 90s. Some of the cover designs had a picture of Mazy and me on it, and though they were SO beautiful, my story goes beyond just motherhood. It really is more about the medical issues, with motherhood being part of that. That is why we decided to go with a cover with the hospital bracelet on it and an EKG line that has been so much a part of my life!
So…when is it coming out?
We are aiming for MID-JUNE! In just a few weeks! If everything goes according to plan, we hope it will officially come out then.
And YES, you will be able to purchase it RIGHT HERE on the blog!
(Of course if you know me personally, you can order a copy from me)!
This has been a very humbling experience and all I pray is that God’s name would be known and that He will be glorified through this book. Yes this book is a story of what has happened in my life, but all the more it’s a story about what God has done IN my life. Soli Deo Gloria!
Can’t wait to share the official release date with you in the next week or two!
I have to add this picture too (below). This just completely sums up this whole process, this book, and what God has done in our life! So my first proof copy was scheduled to come the week I ended up in the hospital. I was so bummed, since I was sitting in the hospital, I had time to read it, but didn’t have a way to get it because we were in Ann Arbor. Well, this is just where God’s providence is so evident. One of the beauties of our story is that God has introduced us to some of the most amazing people. Friends both near and far. Friends that offer such a richness that I didn’t even know could exist in a friendship. God has moved us around a bit, but we have now landed back near my hometown (just one town south of where I grew up). How crazy is that, in and of itself? Well, we are a part of an amazing church with amazing friends. That week while I was in the hospital, some friends of ours came to visit. Well, unbeknownst to me, Dan told them that the book was sitting on our porch and my dear friend generously OVERNIGHTED the proof copy to me! So, while sitting getting my vitals taken, a package was brought to bed #2 and laid on my lap. With my book inside of it.
It was only fitting that my first look at the book was while I was sitting in the hospital with heart rhythm problems! It took me a bit to open the cover, as tears filled my eyes, realizing that so much of my life is written in this book. That the depths of my emotions, along with all the joys and trials included, are now into this book. After I gathered myself, it was only fitting to get a pic of me with it, with an IV in my hand (though not hooked up at the time).
Isn’t it just awe-inspiring how God works in just the littlest of details in life? And thank you Rachel, for even thinking to send it to me! Definitely made the last few days in the hospital manageable!