As the saying goes, time flies when you are having fun, right?
Well, that can also be said to be true when moving to another state! We have lived in Minnesota for 1 1/2 years already, though at times it feels like longer and at other times, it feels shorter. Sometimes I still don’t know where certain things are in the great metropolis over here and do not know who people are, but then other times, I feel like yup, we’ve been here for 10 years!
When we think back to who we were when we first moved here, we can’t help but think back to the journey that brought us here.
That journey had only just begun, when God brought us to Minnesota.
If God would have told us that He was going to move us to Minnesota 3 years ago, I would’ve said “to WHERE?” If God would’ve told us that He was going to heal my heart I would’ve said “Wait, WHAT?” If God would’ve told us that He was going to give us the gift of a child, I would’ve been like Sarah and laughed. I truly don’t know how I would’ve responded. I would love to say that I would’ve just said “okay God, lets go for it!” But I don’t think my faith would’ve truly believed it. Honestly.
And now Dan and I sit, only 4 months away from meeting our baby girl (we pray). We never even DREAMED of this happening – let alone for God to bring us out to Minnesota, for SO MANY reasons.
And one of the things that honestly has been hard, is that when we lost our first 2, we had our families physically there to love and support us, when we had lost so much already. Now to experience pregnancy in such a different way, being away from them, has added some emotions. I have shed some tears over needing to make the phone call instead of telling our families face to face. I have cried over not being able to share some of this experience (like a growing belly) with them – something our families have prayed for, for YEARS and YEARS. I have shed tears over knowing that we are far enough away, that we have to just cling to God’s will for our lives.
And that is what I believe in. That is what I have faith in. That God brought us to Minnesota for healing. For newness. For newness of life. For refreshment. For new relationships. For love. For ways that we do not even fully know yet. God’s will is PERFECT and though it is not always easy, God does make it easy to follow Him when you know He has yet to be unfaithful and knowing He never will be unfaithful. He has shown us time and time again, that His ways are perfect, even when we don’t fully understand them.
Coming home from youth group tonight and being able to share this whole experience with our youth group kids, has been such a pleasure and joy! The joking, the dreams, and the belly rubbing, bring more joy than words can express (yes, I am one of those people who ENJOYS people touching my stomach). God knew what He was doing! God knew it to be perfect, that He would heal my heart and have us become pregnant. God knew it to be perfect that even through the struggles of not being able to share this directly with our families in the physical sense, that it’s our love for each other, that goes beyond any physical distance.
We are so humbled by the love we have felt. We are so humbled that God would choose Minnesota, as a place to grow us, stretch us, and heal us. We are so humbled that God would care enough to give us the true desires of our hearts.
We are blessed.