I was reading the book “Jesus Calling” and there was a devotional in there that I just have to share:
Leave outcomes up to me. Follow Me wherever I lead, without worrying about how it will all turun out. Think of your life as an adventure, with Me as your Guide and Companion. Live in the now, concentrating on staying in step with Me. When our path leads to a cliff, be willing to climb it with My help. When we come to a resting place, take time to be refreshed in My Presence. Enjoy the rhythm of life lived close to Me.
You already know the ultimate destination of your journey: your entrance into heaven. So keep your focus on the path just before you, leaving outcomes up to Me.
Wow. Talk about God just a speakin’ to me there! When I tell people what is going on in our life, I often say I don’t know where we are supposed to go next or what to think. Well Kristin, guess what? Leave it up to God and know that my life is to glorify Him and my destination is heaven. The path that God chooses for us to get there, is up to Him. I do know it’s a path that will glorify Him, so that means in the here and now, I need to just let God guide me and follow His lead.
I have a hard time looking at the big picture, because grief is such in the here and now. Tomorrow will be one month since we found out, and honestly, it seems so long ago, though it seems like yesterday. I see how far I’ve come since a month ago and how much I have grown in faith, yet I see too, how much my faith still needs to grow. Even though this is such a real situation and it only seems it deals with just Dan and I, but really, it deals with God. It deals with God’s perfect plan. It deals with God’s unfailing love for us – love that in unconditional, no matter how many tears fall in frustration. God is working and I praise God that I can FEEL Him working. Though everyday brings it’s own struggles (sometimes not even with the kid thing), but each day I can rest at night and say MY GOD STILL LOVES ME. And I praise God that I can rest easy at night, that I do sleep well, and it’s only by His grace.
I almost feel like tomorrow is a “milestone” for me, with it being a month. I feel wierd saying “a month ago” b/c usually people have tangible things to have milestones for – though for us, it’s a milestone of realizing what we won’t have. At the same time, I hope I get a chance to sit back and truly think about all the positives – all the things God has taught me – all the things He is still going to be teaching me. Tomorrow may have tears, but right now I think it’s a month that I don’t ever have to live through again and praise God for new tomorrows :)! Oh how I love my Lord!