Philippians 4:19 ~ And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
Have you ever taken time to really think about this verse? I read it the other day as I was doing my devotions. Do I REALLY believe that God will supply all that I need?
I think this applies to so many areas of life (actually to ALL areas), yet we fail to truly believe or humble ourselves enough to accept this promise.
Most recently, I found myself saying this “God will supply all that I need” after I was in tears, over Mazy being in tears, because she couldn’t fall asleep for her nap. We have a fighter on our hands and I say that actually in a positive sense (mostly). Sleep is not always on her priority list, which makes napping difficult for her, but at the same time, she just has too much fun playing, which I LOVE. She loves books, toys, animal sounds, being talked to, and just loves life! But there is a point in time when rest is needed, and this mother really struggles with helping her find her sleep (except at night – she goes down really well). With tears streaming down my face, at a loss of what to do next, I just uttered to God “You will supply all that I need.” Even though that particular nap was tough, the next, I found her falling asleep in my arms, which is very rare. Tears of joy, splashed the ground. God knew I needed to feel that comforting love. That “it’s okay, Kristin, I’ve got you” feeling that only God can really give. He truly will supply all that I need.
I think about our past and how that saying “God will supply all that I need” would’ve been such a helpful reminder, but that is beauty of the Christian life – you are never done learning. Never done growing. Never done seeking our heavenly Father! Not that I didn’t believe that or know that to be true, but I didn’t let it sink into my heart – sink into my problems and worries and wash them away.
I think back when I thought we should have had kids. I didn’t understand why God wasn’t supplying what I needed in order to have kids – a healthy heart. Yet God was supplying what I needed – I needed my faith challenged and my trust to grow, so that when the trials did come, I could withstand them. God supplied.
I think about what my future holds. A possible open heart surgery. Or maybe another heart healing. Whatever the case may be, God will supply all that I need. No matter what the circumstance.
As for my health, I know my heart isn’t where it should be, which at times I get very frustrated about. But truly, it’s okay. I am a wife. I am a mother. I am a daughter of my King. What more could I ask for? There are days when I just want to run again, but maybe that day will come. Having to walk the annual 4th of July race in town this year, was very difficult because it reminded of what I couldn’t do, but it also reminded me of what I CAN do, and that is walk. Not everyone can say that and I don’t want to take that ability for granted. I do still have to occasionally take my diuretic pill to pass excess fluids. The day I take it I feel fairly lethargic, but the day after, I feel so great because my body is functioning on the amount it should be. What a gift medicine really is! I am also more tired (though having a 3 1/2 month old also factors in) and I feel fatigued at times, but those are all symptoms of heart failure, which are things I am just learning to accept. We still look back on those days after I had Mazy and it is only by the grace of God that we got through them. I am so thankful that I am where I am today, able to care and love Mazy to the fullest. The most fulfilling experience I have ever had.
God has supplied. Always. God will continue to supply. Always.
What a beautiful promise to hold on to.
What experiences have you had, that reminded you that God WILL ALWAYS supply what you need?