This week has been a lot of “heart” talk for some reason. More than it has been for awhile, but it’s a good thing. Some ask how we are doing and not everyone knows that we are waiting to hear the results from Mayo Clinic, but it’s interesting to see their responses. I feel like anytime you say the words “Mayo Clinic,” people’s eyes pop out and they think “whoa.” I chuckle at that because that is EXACTLY how I used to feel! When people started to talk to me about Mayo, I truly freaked out. But now, I’ve totally accepted it. Crazy how God changes your frame of mind when you are actually going through the situation yourself!
This morning I had Bible study and someone had a very insightful thought, that really put me at ease for the day. I’ve been frustrated that we have to wait to February for my appt., but God has His PERFECT reason for it. What if we would’ve known the results right before Christmas when we got the call that the results were in? It honestly could’ve “ruined” our Christmas excitement. This person said that the waiting time has offered time to accept what we’ve been told. It’s time given to us, to heal, to grieve, and to move on. Also, my appt. is about a week and a half before we leave for the Dominican. Whatever the results are, we will be able to deal with them, and then leave and let it go while we go to the Dominican. And love on kids. The Dominican may offer that extra healing that we may need. So, after this morning, I thought this person is so right! I believe that God’s timing is perfect, but now I SEE reasons as to WHY it’s perfect. I can believe it, but sometimes my faith stinks and I need to SEE reasons. Today I was given reasons to BELIEVE in the timing of this all.
Questions of adoption keep coming up (like I mentioned in earlier posts), and I am still having a hard time fully explaining where we are at, only because we are still dealing with it. God will show us His ways for us in His timing. We are just trying so hard to obey God in all this and as much as we wish we had the answers, we don’t. All we can give as answers, is what God has put in our hearts.
Tonight we had the chance to meet with some youth group parents and I LOVE doing that! Teaming up with parents to help guide their kids toward Christ, is such a humbling road to walk! We feel SO STRONGLY that we are meant to walk alongside our youth group kids and them only right now. We love them so passionately that our love is hard to explain. We are blessed to have “kids.”
On a side note…we just booked a vacation! AND WE ARE PUMPED! We are for SURE going to Fripp Island! And where is that you might ask? Just north of Hilton Head. Check it out on goodle earth/maps and you’ll probably fall in love right away too :). We are staying in the North Hamptonish area, right on the ocean. To be honest, Dan and I talk about it all the time :). People kept saying that we need a vacation and I agreed; it was just finding the right time – in ministry that is hard to do. But we found a time in May and we are stoked.
I want to end this thanking everyone for walking this journey with us! It has obviously not been an easy one, but I know God is not done with us yet. There will be MANY days filled with joy ahead, I’m sure! Some posts are probably rather depressing to read, yet the next may be completely positive. But that’s the reality of our situation and our life right now. I hope to continue this blog for many years to come only because God doesn’t stop working – even in the “normal” days. So thanks again for being patient with us, with God, and for walking with us.