Had a thought today while I was cleaning church.
God allows trials in life, things that we may not necessarily look forward to, and things that may cause us tears and grief. I was thinking about my doctor appt. in February and how I would react if they recommended open heart surgery. I think I would think, really? Again? But I got to thinking…
What if there were no trials? What if I didn’t have a belief in God? My trials and challenges would really have no point, but just to upset me and make me have a horrible day. BUT…without trials, we wouldn’t need faith. We wouldn’t need that inner strength and pure grace that ONLY comes from God! God adopted me as His child. I have received His grace, not earned it. I have received His love, not earned it. God gave it to me freely.
By being upset and sad about the things going in my life is human and expected. But today I thought, so I’m upset – does that mean I don’t believe that God can take me through or has a purpose in them? I remember in October lying on my bed just bawling my eyes and asking God why. WHY? It was at that moment I felt peace – a peace that God could only give. It was my surrendering my own ability to deal with the trials we were given, and accepting the fact that I can’t do this on my own, but I need God. I think it’s a fine line almost to walk. I think God surely wants us to express our emotions to Him because it shows we can’t do it without Him. But in expressing that, we need to BELIEVE that God will help form us and mold us into the person who He wants us to be.
It just made me think. If I dwell in the challenges God has given us, it decreases my faith in the fact that God has worked and will CONTINUE to work in us, through this. God has a purpose in everything. If I sit here and worry and about what will happen in February, it increases my thinking that I need to do this on my own and decreases my faith in God.
I conclude with the verses from James 1: