Oh how I love saying that now I am officially FULL TERM!
Those are words that I never even thought of saying – let alone the opportunity to say I am pregnant. I still to this day, find myself standing in front of the mirror and whispering “I am PREGNANT.” You would think that after almost 9 months, it would sink in, but it really has not. We still marvel at the life growing inside of me (only God), how well my body has reacted to pregnancy (only God), and that we are just weeks away from meeting HER (again, only GOD)!
I had my 37 week checkup (made it to the weekly appointments) this week and nothing too new. Next week I will have an ultrasound to see how big she is and if I need to be induced. My doctor said that with heart patients, they will induce a week early, just to be safe, but it will depend on what my cervix looks like (not sure what that means, but we’ll take it). Otherwise if she is doing okay and is on the smaller side, they will just let me go and not let me go 1 week PAST my due date. I about keeled over when he said that because here we think she is going to come early! Now to think that it could be almost a month yet before we meet her? Yikes! But then we realize that God knows. God knows THE perfect time for her to make her appearance. For her to enter into this world and put her into our arms. He knows when she is perfectly ready.
Pregnancy has taught me so much about faith. Really, the whole process of having a child, is completely out of our control. From the time of conception, to the time of the birth, us mere humans can do nothing about it. Yes, women can take care of their bodies and eat a healthy diet. Yes, doctors can induce to ensure the safety of the mother and baby, but in the end, it all is still in GOD’S hands, as HE is the sustainer of life!
God has taught me over the years, that life is unpredictable. But what is predictable is that God will never let go and never leave our sides. That has given such comfort to someone who used to like her life planned out. Oh trust me, I would LOVE to know that day that my contractions will start, but why sit back and wait for the inevitable? That is why this week, we have continued in our normal schedule, knowing that at anytime, we could be stopped dead in our tracks. Why sit, wait, and wish time away? God knows! So why waste my time waiting and trying to figure out when that time is? It is all part of letting go of that control. If my water breaks at a basketball game, so be it. It could’ve happened 5 weeks ago. Of course if I feel like something isn’t right, I might not travel an hour somewhere, but until then, we are going to keep going.
Letting God take control of our time and our lives, has been the most freeing experience! I could sit and worry about the delivery, but that would do me no good, except raise my blood pressure; which my blood pressure is still right on – 108/68. That is purely God! My feet are still swelling each day, but nothing too painful. She is still moving around in there, as we now know where her body parts are. When I wake up in the middle of the night, her little tush is usually sticking straight up and poking out of my stomach, which is just so cute! Sounds weird, but she must be tucked in their tightly.
We are looking very forward to that ultrasound, but until then, we just continue to see each as a blessing with her, with us! The beginnings of us becoming an earthly family of 3!