sit down and think, what does your mind turn to? All of the things you
have to get done? All of the things you haven’t done? All of the things
you wished you would have done?
Time can be such a stressor. Does the mere act of looking at
your calendar, cause your blood pressure to rise? I know mine can!
Sometimes we wish time away. But as I continue to walk through life, I
am realizing more and more each day, that wishing time away, is wishing
away the very blessings God is freely ready and willing to give us each
I remember when Dan and I started the IVF process. Just
THINKING about involving and dedicating our lives to an intricate and
specialized process made our minds spin. Our first few appointments were
all about what steps to take next. I ended up created a binder with
TABS, just to keep our paperwork in order and keep our sanity in order.
Then I got “the calendar.” Anyone who has gone through IVF, knows
exactly what I am talking about. The calendar listing all of the shots,
when to take them, how much, with the stipulations that if you mess up,
it could ruin the system. Not to mention, you have the pressure of
spending thousands and thousands of dollars to do this. A good friend of
mind told me (as well as the clinic), that you just have to take it one
step at a time. Not even one day – one step. If I would’ve wished away
each day, each time I had to give myself a shot, I would’ve been
wishing away hope – hope of a child(ren). Wishing away the joy we had
everyday knowing we were given an incredible, indescribable gift from
Brenda. A gift that we continue to treasure. To this day.
That very life situation – going through IVF, taking each
month, each week, each day, each moment, for almost a whole year, and
embracing it, taught us more than we could’ve ever imagined. We had no
clue how God would use the gestational carrier process to teach us such
valuable truths. That is why we ALL, have never regretted choosing to go
through that process.
Taking it one STEP at a time. It is difficult. We want to know
the future. We want to plan out our lives. But why are we wasting time
worrying? God has already planned and written down our steps. Sometimes
God asks us to take BIG steps – big commitments, big leaps of faith. But
we are not to worry. God has our lives in the palm of His hands. He has
already written our story. He has already written the next chapter.
We just have to trust. Don’t let your calendar, your life situation,
control you. Let the peace of God overwhelm you each and everyday. I
want to leave you with this:
Matthew 6:25 – 34 says:
Do Not Worry
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry
about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what
you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than
clothes? 26 Look at the birds of
the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your
heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[e]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If
that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and
tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you
of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.