On October 31, 2017, my life was thrown (or flown) into a bit of a tailspin. I had learned that I was severely sick (with what the doctors weren’t sure of), but after going to the local ER, was flown back to the University of Michigan where I learned that I needed to have yet another open heart surgery.
I remember that moment so vividly in my head. I held it together the best I could while the surgeon told me the news, but the second he stepped out, I wept. And wept. I couldn’t do it. There was no way.
But I did… and here I am.
There have been a few times in my life, when it has felt like the “ceiling was caving in.” It felt that all of life’s problems were coming down at once, and I couldn’t find my way through the rubble. And yet we continue to find our way through, don’t we?
I think that every person has had that feeling at some point. All different scenarios, but we’ve all had that feeling that life just hasn’t been going the way we thought it would. I know you are picturing or thinking of a scenario right at this moment.
Yet I look at these times and I can’t help but think of one word. The very word that I find myself centering my heart and mind around, day after day: grace.
Grace isn’t this magically healing word that just makes everything hunky dory. No. Grace gives you the guts to keep going, even when you’ve got, well, not much left. Grace gives you the peace that it’s going to be okay. God is the giver of this very word: grace. And He truly wants to give us this gift, day after day. Minute after minute. Second after second.
There are going to be days (if you haven’t had them already), when you wonder how you will put one foot in front of the other. Let me tell you, it’s grace. Because God’s grace IS sufficient and His power IS made perfect in our weakness (2 Cor. 12:9).
At some point, the ceiling will feel like it’s caving in. When you start to make your way through the rubble, will you see those rays of grace shining through? Or will you just bury your head? The choice is up to you!