GOD’S plans are worth the wait.
If someone told me that I would give birth, I would have laughed. In fact, I probably would’ve cried because why would anyone tease me with that idea? If someone told me that I would have our first child at 31, I would have laughed. In fact, I probably would’ve cried because that is not how we envisioned our life.
But God’s plans have been worth the wait.
Mazy Grace has been worth the wait.
The other night, Dan and I sat dreaming about how we were going to tell Mazy about her siblings in heaven? As tears welled up in my eyes, there was a longing to meet them (a longing that will never go away), but so much peace as my arms are full. Full of a life that loves life. Full of a life that is a fulfillment of God’s promises. That God is a God of hope and of faithfulness.
I know God took our first two children back into His arms for a reason. A reason that is far greater than our minds will ever comprehend. But this I know – God is faithful.
As I was singing Mazy to sleep (while listening to Pandora), the song “Blessings” by Laura Story came on. These lyrics caught my attention:
‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?
So much of our healing has come through tears. Tears of sorrow and joy. Tears of loss and gain. Tears of hurt and restoration. Those nights that tears drowned my pillow, I look back and can only thank God for them. Because truly, that is when I learned that HE is near.
I don’t know what my future holds. Sometimes I would love to know. I would love to know what the future looks like with my heart. Even with kids. Sometimes I think Mazy would love a brother or sister, but only God knows. Sometimes I think heart-wise I can only handle one child, but I have the ability to love on others’ kids. I’d love to know if an open heart surgery is around the corner or that my heart is healing. But regardless of what our future holds, it will be worth the wait.
God’s plans have been worth the wait.
I don’t know what you are waiting for. All I know is that when you are in God’s will and HIS plan, it is worth it.
What are you waiting patiently on God for?