A Mother’s Heart
Two weekends ago, it was Mother’s Day. About 6 months ago, I was dreading that time. I couldn’t even think about what a day that celebrates mothers, when I thought I would for sure be one someday, would be like after being told you may not be one in a biological way. When God brought that to our attention last fall, I wanted to crawl in a hole and just bawl for days.
My life now: not even thinking about kids :)! PRAISE GOD for that BLESSING! We have WAY bigger things to worry about, which in a way, has become a blessing. Realizing I need to care for myself physically, has been a blessing because it has taken the focus off the future and has put it on the present. Only God knows what our life will look like in 5, 10, 50 years. There is not ONE single person here on this earth who knows – only God. So until then, we sit back, enjoy life the best we can, and wait for his timing.
This may sound a little wierd, but I was thankful we were not going to our church for Mother’s Day. I am glad we were conveniently gone, only because I didn’t want to deal with it all. The church we visited in South Carolina had an AMAZING reading for Mother’s Day! I looked for it on their website, but it wasn’t there. Basically it was about all the different types of mother’s out there. I got a little teary eyed reading it only because I realized that though I may not be a mother myself, I can still “be” one in character. I know mothers out there are probably thinking I have no idea what it’s like, and yes you are right. But the nature of a mother is one who cares for another (usually their own). But in cases where that is not possible, God finds ways to fill in the gaps. The reading mentioned those who were mothers, those who lost mothers, lost children, are aunts, grandmas, teachers, sunday school teachers, mentors, friends, and someone who just loves another basically. It was SUCH a beautiful reading because it hit EVERY woman in that sanctuary. I felt like I mattered as a “mother.” That feeling is indescribable – to be told you are worth more than you think, even though you may not be an “official” mother. Dan and I talk about that a lot with our youth group kids obviously and how I really am content. But it’s days like Mother’s Day that are hard – but I didn’t even cry – only teary eyed – because of joy. Nobody can take away the characteristics that I may have as a “mother” to whomever I come into contact with. They can’t take away the love and passion I have for people. What a perfect way to spend Mother’s Day – in realization that there are many ways to be a “mother.”
This is just another example of God keeping His eye out for us :)!
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