September 17 always brings tears.
It was 4 years ago that our little babies went to be with their heavenly Father. Our two little babies that God allowed to grow for 3 weeks in Brenda’s womb. A journey we never imagined being a part of, yet a journey that we couldn’t be more thankful for.
Journeys of pain do not always make sense, but as I look at the picture(s) below, the journey through pain has made more sense and has given us more understanding about who God is. Like it says in Proverbs, Trust in the Lord with all your heart; lean not on your understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and he will make your paths straight.
Last summer, I was able to capture a picture of God’s promises being fulfilled. The promise of new life, but here, Brenda is holding the child that God gave to us through my pregnancy. Those two little babies in heaven will always be part of our circle, but to see Brenda holding Mazy, words just can’t explain it. I truly believe that if Brenda did not answer God’s call on her life to carry our babies, we would not have Mazy. It was because of her obedience, that we were blessed with a baby of our own. Just not in the way we imagined.
Our bond is not because of what Brenda offered to do – to carry our babies, but it went and still goes far beyond that. It’s a friendship that God designed to be from the beginning of time.
So on a day that we commemorate our two little hooties in heaven, we commemorate together. We celebrate their lives together. We still reflect on the pain together. We continue to look forward to see what God is doing in and through our lives together. I will never forget the night 4 years ago, when Brenda called and said she thought she had lost them. The journey has been nothing like we planned, but we can’t help but shed tears of joy for where God has brought us all.
We once heard it said that one can only pray that God would accomplish more in one’s death than through one’s life. As hard as it is to accept that truth, we know that God knows best and that He saw fit that He wanted to accomplish more through their death, than through their life here on earth.
And we believe Mazy Grace is just a glimpse of that.
September 17, 2012 is the day our babies met their Creator, but God has been faithful. He is still God. He is still who He says He is. One day, our family will be complete. Until then, we will just celebrate the life God HAS given us – a life that reflects God’s Amazing Grace.
It is not ironic, but God’s perfect timing, that Mazy turned 18 months old today. Her smile, her hugs, her love for life, there just are no words.