Beauty through experiencing loss.
Loss is incredibly hard to explain – whether it be something tangible or something that you had to let go of all too soon. It is only because of loss, that the experience of carrying a child, is all the more, a miraculous gift.
If it wasn’t for our first two Hooties in Heaven, we wouldn’t understand what it means to have the blessing of carrying a child on earth.
There is beauty. There is beauty in the taking away. In the loss. Because blessed be the Name of the Lord. Understanding what it means to have a Sovereign God that gives and takes away, only increases the beauty of what is given. If we didn’t know loss, we wouldn’t know the beauty of gain.
If we didn’t know loss, we wouldn’t understand the beauty of what we have now – a beautiful little girl, growing inside.
If we didn’t know loss, we wouldn’t have the beauty of our relationship with our carrier – EVEN in loss.
If we didn’t know loss and experience what it means to lose children, we wouldn’t understand the miracle they truly are.
If I didn’t know loss, in not being able to have a child of my own, we wouldn’t know the joy of hearing the words “I see no problem with it.”
If we didn’t know loss, we wouldn’t know the grace that God can truly give.
If we didn’t know loss, our faith would not be where it is today.
If we didn’t know loss, we would know what it means to trust God and HIS PERFECT plan in our life.
If we didn’t know loss, we wouldn’t understand the depth of love for two little babies we never met.
If we didn’t know loss, we wouldn’t know the simple depth of love.
If we didn’t know loss, we wouldn’t understand why this girl means so incredibly much to us already. A girl we haven’t even officially met, but are counting down the days until we can hold her. Dreaming of the day we can kiss her, love on her, and give her our love. A love that has been given to two little children in Heaven, but has only grown, as God graciously gives us each day with our baby girl inside of me.
There is beauty in loss. There is beauty in the taking away. God allowed the pain of our past to bring about His sovereign purposes – a plan that we truly never imagined. Only a perfect and creative God could create and design a plan such as this.
We don’t know what tomorrow will hold. That is why we treasure each and every day with our little girl. A girl and a gift that has given us so much hope. A gift that God has given us to remind us that if we delight in Him, He will give us the desires of our hearts.
For this child, we prayed. For this child, we continue to pray.