We are HOME!
Needless to say, this week hasn’t necessarily gone as planned. When I found out Monday that I was being admitted to Michigan for heart failure, I was thinking we would be there 1 day. Well, one day turned into 6. It was an eventful week of seeing my heart beat completely out of sorts, but by the end of the week, finding some regularity. Thankfully the tests I had (heart catheterization, perfusion test, numerous blood tests, and MRI) all showed that there are no further issues with my heart, just purely a poor ejection fraction with lots of pvcs.
And that is why we are now praying for another miracle.
I think because heart issues have been a part of my life for so long, I forget that the very God who is in control of every beat of my heart, is also the God who can HEAL my heart. I become so accustomed to having issues, and yes we pray for healing, but is my faith BELIEVING He will heal me? I have really tried to work on accepting the situation God has me in, that I honestly forget to pray for a miracle. He has done it numerous times and I pray He will do it again. All I have to do is look at Mazy to see the miracles He has done in my life! I pray that as the weeks go by, that God will bring my heart back to normal, and that I will not feel any symptoms. That the medication combinations will work and that the doctors will be wowed by what has occurred. AND. That I can get rid of the LifeVest! I am thankful that I do not need a bypass pump and that this is just temporary, but it sure does put a damper on life. I’m believing that it can happen!
I will go in sometime this week again to the University of Michigan for a check-up, blood work, and also a treadmill stress test, in hopes of seeing how my heart reacts to stress, exercise, and fatigue.
So what really went wrong? What we are thinking is that over time, my pvcs (irregular beats) were so frequent in number that it effected my heart function, causing the low ejection fraction. It was so out of sync that finally my body said enough and I became very symptomatic. I have to admit I have been tired, but just assumed it was part of life and part of parenting. Now if we are able to reduce the number of pvcs, then hopefully the function of my heart will in turn, increase as well. We are incredibly thankful that no other issues were found with all of the intricate heart tests that I had. In fact, the results of the heart cath were so great that the doctor said I may want to get retested because nothing seemed to be apparently wrong with my heart from a heart cath standpoint. Isn’t that just crazy? Clearly my heart was beating extremely out of sync earlier in the week, but we just PRAY that a miracle will happen and that crazy healing happens by the hands of God.
I am 34 and I just want to be a mama and wife to the best of my abilities. I know right now the best of my abilities is with a heart condition and that is okay. I am accepting that there are things that I just won’t do in life because of my heart condition, but all I want to do is be able to swim, giggle, and laugh with Mazy in the pool this summer. I want to cheer her on as she rides her bike around our town. I want to walk to go get ice cream without feeling winded. I want to get those new library books with Mazy, walking there, and maybe even grabbing a donut on the way. We are praying this is a healing week and that God will continue to give us peace through it all too. He has been so faithful and we pray that He will continue to wow us yet again!
Thank you for joining with us in praying. We know there is a huge cloud of witnesses lifting us up in prayer. Thank you. We know God hears and cares about every single one of those prayers! And may God’s will be done!