Along For The Ride
What a week!
We are still celebrating the fact that Brenda is pregnant – I know I may sound like a broken record, but after over 10 months of going through this process, this is truly something to celebrate. Not that it was a long road, but there was just so much that had to happen to get to this point. So many hurdles we had to jump over. So many “things” that could’ve been what we call show-stoppers. But nothing can stop GOD. Every time we all get together, we just end up talking about how this is ALL GOD. We have defied the odds. Even though our situation isn’t on the charts b/c of her age and our age, it doesn’t need to be if we are follower’s of Christ. No chart can tell us what God can and can’t do. Yes it can give us direction, but we have found these charts that we don’t fit on, to just be more of a testimony of what God has done. To rub Brenda’s stomach everytime we are there and to know our child(ren) are in there, just makes me get chills inside. To know that when Dan and I go to bed at night, we can say “we have children growing.” This ALL has been worth the wait!
We are so thankful for this “season” of life, yet it is a really tough one. We are so thankful that God has given us the joy of Brenda’s pregnancy in light of Dan being let go (or fired). We do not fully understand why, which we struggle then to find peace. We know God knows and He is leading us down a path that only He knows about. There is so much to figure out, so much to think about, and so much to heal from. But again, we are so blessed and humbled at the stage of life we are in. Though it is FULL of transition, it just calls us to have that much more faith – faith that God will do what He sees fit in our life and there is no stopping Him. God’s got the steering wheel and we are trying our best to not look over the Driver’s (God’s) shoulder to see what is up ahead. God is taking us somewhere – destination unknown. But God has it all mapped out and we trying our best to enjoy the ride, though we are struggling. Trust me, we have our moments of doubt. We are our moments of just wanting to shout “what is going on?” But we do not want to lose hope. Right when we think we can say “okay God, let’s go – we trust you” something happens and sets us back. But that is God pruning us. Molding us into the creatures He first created us to be. The sanctifying process doesn’t mean it is always easy, but we are thankful that though trials have come yet once again the last few days, we know God’s got this.
BUT…on the upside, BRENDA IS PREGNANT. To have people continuing to celebrate with us so fun! We do not want all this “tough stuff” to be robbing us of the joy that is going in our family building process. This is just amazing!
Thank you for walking this journey with us.
