A Little Update

It has been another week filled with God’s assurance. We have seen Him working time and time again this week, giving us the confidence we need, to continue to pursue what He has set before us. We are getting more and more confirmation that we are meant to start the actual process of retrieving and implanting next summer. Yes, that does seem like a long ways away (we all think that) but we have realized that it is going to take a long time to get there with all of the appointments. Having this type of time frame, gives us time – something that we are realizing we need. Yes we would all love to start tomorrow, but we know that if we “hurried” up the process, it would not be healthy for either parties. With that said, we all feel at peace with a start up time of next summer. Of course we are open to God changing this, but summer is where we feel God is leading us – there have been many ways that He has helped us confirm that.

Brenda had to go through a test this week and it went well! She was also able to talk with the counselor (we all are required to meet with the counselor because of our situation using a gestational carrier). That also went so well! Brenda realized that many of the questions the counselor asked her, we had already talked about. It kind of makes us laugh because we are all going into this all blind, yet we have covered a lot of the “tough” situations and questions. Again we only give God the glory for that – to help us think of the things we need to be talking about, to make this process that much easier and smooth. Things that many would think would “stop” us, we have already discussed. I am glad Brenda could talk with the counselor because I think what she is going to be going through, is going to be hard to see. To see her go through pain for us. To see her dedicate so much time and effort in order for US to have our own kids. To see her have to give up the baby(ies). It takes one special woman to be able to do that! Ah. We are so blessed and what a precious gift! Dan and I also look forward to meeting with the counselor, first because she has already met with Brenda so she knows who we are talking about and what an amazing woman Brenda is, but also to help us understand what this will all take. We know without a doubt that it will be God and our faith in His plan for us, that will carry us through. We know we won’t be able to talk about our situation without bringing up God because He is forefront of this all! We know too, that God has placed people in our life at the perfect time, to encourage us.

We know there are a lot of questions out there that we have had to think about. The obvious: what if it doesn’t work? What if something would happen to Brenda while pregnant? What about the baby? Who’s insurance would cover it? What if something happened to Dan and I while Brenda was pregnant and we died? How many times are we willing to try? How are the costs going to be covered? When is enough enough? How involved are we going to be in the pregnancy? What would the delivery room look like – who would be there? What if we had twins? Honestly, there seem to be a million questions out there, one’s that we have already addressed and one’s we haven’t. But again, we are just living in the peace that God is God and He will do what He pleases with us. Yes, some of those questions humanly are hard to even think about, but we are so at peace with them. With God, these are possible to think about because we know we serve a greater purpose! We see those questions as stepping stones.

We continue to praise God for the guidance He has given us and the Vriezemas! To think about how God unites people in Christian love and faith – the people He puts in our lives to live out His plan. It is amazing. I know some of this may sound redundant, but it is only a testimony of what God is doing in our life! We are humbled and in awe. And we thank you for your continued prayers and encouragement!