Spiritual Appetite

I have a “healthy” appetite. I can eat food like it’s going out of style. In fact, often times I out-eat Dan. Food is not necessarily an addiction for me, but I sure do have a good ole appetite.

What I have thought about MORE recently, is how is my spiritual appetite? I have dealt with some intestinal issues over the past couple of months, with uncertainty as to why. That has caused me to think about what I put into my system (that’s a whole other blog post in and of itself). Yet as I have thought about what I put into my system, it has raised questions in my own heart and mind, how I feed my “spiritual appetite.”

What am I feeding my heart with everyday? How am I using the “fuel” God has given me in my heart, to serve Him? Do I continue to hunger for more of HIM?

I think back to all of the events of last year. As I was running today, my mind wandered back to the tornado and losing the babies. Sometimes I have to snap out of those daydream moments and rest assured that God is caring continually. During those times in my life, I had a relationship with God that I can’t explain – a complete dependence – a complete surrender to what He was doing in our life. Now being on the other side of those events, I find myself with a mediocre spiritual appetite. Yes I still read through a devotional, read the Bible, do a Bible study, and pray. But my hunger for more of God isn’t as strong as it was. When I am not feeding into that appetite, what comes out is impatience, insecurity, and a desire for things of the world. The things that I am constantly trying NOT to feed into my spiritual appetite.

At the foot of the cross, is where my heart is full. In the quiet moments of the morning, is where I find my heart desiring more. What I fill my time, my life, my spiritual life with, is what I am representing – what I will hunger for more of.

Are you hungry for more of Him?