A Day To Remember
Mother’s Day.
A day filled with so many emotions. It was a day I used to dread. A day I wouldn’t be able to get through without crying. A day I dreaded going to church on. A day that brought so many suppressed thoughts and emotions to the surface. A day I never thought I would celebrate as a mom.
And on this day, my heart still grieves. For those waiting. For those wanting. For those who have lost. For those whose hearts feel empty. It’s a day that is meant to celebrate, but for many, it’s a day that many can’t wait to see gone by. My heart feels for you. My heart aches for you. My heart prays for you.
It’s a day that reminds me of our 2 babes in heaven and it’s a day that I am reminded of the miracle our sweet Mazy Grace is.
These pictures really say it all:
I cry looking at them. Five years separates them and I still can’t believe it. I still can’t comprehend that this is real. That Mazy is with us. We have endured a lot together and it has not been easy, by all means. But what we have is a bond that is stronger than ever before and a love that grows deeper by the day. As I often tell her, “I could kiss those cheeks all day…” I truly could. I can’t kiss this sweet girl enough!
God has blessed me beyond measure. I know one day our family will be whole, but until that day, I will embrace every second I have with Mazy Grace. Life is fragile. Life is short. One can never give enough hugs and kisses. She often tells me her cheeks are still there after I tell her I could eat them, but truly sweet girl, you mean the world to me! I couldn’t be more thankful for my own mama who has shown me since I was little, what being a mom looks like. And for Brenda, for being a mama in a unique way, for our 2 little babes for the short time they were with us. I couldn’t be more thankful for her gift to this day!
For all those who walk through this day, no matter where you are at in life, God sees, God knows, God hears. Keep trusting forward. It will be worth every step.
