Day -3 & Last Day of Chemo!

January 7, 2024January 7, 2024

Day -3 and last day of chemo! Now starting up immunosuppressants and preparing for anti rejection drugs! This body is going through a LOT of change, but so far, God’s grace has been holding it steady and fairly strong. I try to walk about 2 miles a day around the floor, which helps keep things moving. Here’s to hopefully getting out of here as fast as I can!

It’s a strange place to be, a place where I know I know I need to be, yet so surreal compared to life outside of it. Yet this is my reality and this is where God has me serving Him in this moment. It makes me want to strive for “enoughness”, but only His grace is enough for each moment and me resting in Him is where enough is found. Laying around in a hospital room sure challenges all aspects of who you are, but I’m so thankful for God’s grace and love he continues to show our family! Thank you for all of the prayers, texts, messages, etc, that you’ve given our family! We truly do not walk alone and though I don’t respond to each comment, know each is read and cherished. Thank you, for loving us through this!

To Be Known

This coming Tuesday, I head back to Ann Arbor to prep my body for yet another ablation on Thursday. The reason for early admission is I will be taken off some of my heart meds in order to create a “best case scenario”, but I also won’t feel great. The idea of having to go…

In But Not Of

Romans 12: 1-2 says “Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. 2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you…

Looking Out

Often when I hear the words “LOOK OUT”, I automatically get into defense mode. Harm is coming (I don’t know in what form), but right away my body tenses up, my mind goes into survival mode, and I’m ready to attack. I can think of one incident in particular, where “looking out” maybe didn’t end…

When You Don’t “Enjoy Every Moment” In Motherhood

I have a tendency to place a lot of guilt on myself. Always have. I used to think that if I didn’t enjoy something to the fullest, that I was somehow failing, was less of a mom, or ungrateful. Have you ever felt that way? I love Mazy more than that wee little 3 year…

Believing and Trusting

Mission trips, I think no matter WHERE you go, God can use you. I think no matter WHERE God calls you, God can use you. That is how I have been feeling. I have thought many a times about our mission trip to Belize these past few days. I have thought about our mission trip…

Choosing God In The Journey

I merged onto the highway, on the straightaway home. I had 2 hours ahead of me to process what had all just happened. After spending numerous hours in testing, not that they were necessarily physically draining, I was emotionally and mentally spent. Trying to comprehend all that was being done, trying to understand all the…

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Lisa says:

January 10, 2024 at 9:19 pm

Dear Kristin,
I stumbled upon your blog about a year ago & have been following you & praying along with you ever since. I am humbled by your strength and your love for Jesus. Please know what an inspiration your faith is to me & that many prayers are being said on your behalf. Stay strong 💪

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1. Kristin Sterk says:
  
  January 12, 2024 at 12:55 pm
  
  Hi Lisa! Thank you so much for your comment and I’m thankful you chose to message me too! Thank you for your prayers, love, and support as we walk this journey through cancer. We know that what God leads us to, He will lead us through. We are also ready to take a breather from cancer, as it’s been a long journey :), which we have all been on long journeys to some extent or another! Thank you for your encouraging words and please keep in touch! Would love to hear more of your story! Much love to you, Lisa!
  
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