Playing The Big Game

Only just a few more days!

We are going to find out on Wednesday if Brenda is pregnant! It is only a blood test, not an ultrasound. So, she plans on getting her blood drawn pretty early and hopefully we will eventually hear from the clinic that she is prego! Then on Friday, she will have another blood test to ensure that her levels are going up and that the pregnancy is “holding” so to speak. Then in a few weeks, she will have an ultrasound (I believe that is when we would find out if there are multiple).

We first thought we would find out on Tuesday, but Wednesday is okay too. Honestly it is okay with us because we have waited THIS long – we can wait one more day. We are so at peace with it too. Like I’ve said earlier, we can do nothing to change what is going on in Brenda. Brenda can do nothing to change what is going on in her. She is merely the carrier. God is the Creator and Sustainer. If it is a positive pregnancy test, then praise be to God. If it is not a positive pregnancy test, then praise be to God still. We know God created life last week. Grief and sorrow will definitely come. And stay for awhile I am sure. It’s sometimes hard to think about. But we know that God has done ALL of this for His good purposes and for our own good. To think He cares about us this much, that no matter what happens, it is His will. Is that not so refreshing?

So we wait. We wait in humble expectation of what God is going to reveal to us in a few days! And we continue to live expectantly.

Amidst all of this overwhelming joy, we are also waiting in anticipation to see what God is doing in other areas of our life. Though we cannot speak directly about it yet, we are hoping to soon. We are still dealing with some opposition that has caused much stress, but also has made us even MORE so, fully rely on God (F.R.O.G.) There is a lot that is unknown in our life right now, but at the same time, our hearts are at peace. Our minds are going every which way, but we have realized that because of all that has occurred with the opposition, it has caused us to just trust God alone.

I think of sports (go figure).

I feel there are many situations in life that prepare us for the “big game.” God brings us through many different drills so to speak, to test us. To test our faith. To test our determination. To test our strength. To test our will and desire. To test our allegiance. When game day comes (or a trial so to speak), who’s jersey are we wearing? Every time I go through a trial, Who am I representing? Who’s Name do I bear? I remember back in the day when I played basketball, our coaches would tell us “remember who you are representing.” That is true in the Christian life. No matter what happens, trials and triumphs, who is getting the glory and who are we representing through our responses? That is something I have really tried to remember as Dan and I go through probably one of the toughest times of our life. The tornado we thought was “the big game”. Finding out we couldn’t have kids we thought was “the big game”. BUT. The “Big Game” to me, is a game we play everyday in a way. When it comes down to it, WHO ARE WE PLAYING FOR? WHO ARE WE REPRESENTING?

Despite all that is going on and the trials that continue to come, we still rejoice and rest in PEACE that God has us under His wing. He is holding us in His hands. What a comfort that is. We rest in PEACE knowing God has our children in His hands. At times yes, we get overwhelmed, but it’s when we lose sight of God’s promises that our faith waivers.

We are so thankful to our Abba, Father, for giving us so much joy. We are so thankful to our Abba, Father, for testing our faith. We both have never felt such an intimate relationship with God. So intimate that at times, we sit in silence and just let God read our minds. We tell God “you know what’s on our minds.” Sometimes no words are there. Just silence. Just being. But God knows EVERY SINGLE ONE of them. What peace that brings. What joy that fills our hearts.