Revelations
Sorry, this post isn’t about the book of Revelation, though I wish I had some interesting insights into that book b/c it’s a great one! But this is about the revelations I’ve experienced today. God has blessed me greatly with putting some very special people in my life along this journey. People who have listened intently when I needed it, gave wisdom when asked, and empathized. They have helped me come to the realization that I can do this – that God WILL see this through. I want to share with you some of those revelations that were shown to me today through them!
OUR story. Dan and I’s story. Kristin’s story. Everyone has a story. I’ve realized that I have tried to explain and explain what I feel, what I’m thinking, what I want, and what God is doing – I could explain it 100 times and nobody would completely understand what is going on inside Kristin’s head :). God has written a very unique story for my life. A story that I don’t sometimes understand and have to read over and over to try to get what He is trying to say. I don’t need to try to make my story like everyone else’s. It never will be. My story is unique and I need to live that out. I need to live confidently in the story God has given me – not try to justify it to people, not try to rack my brain to find a different way to explain to people why God has brought us to the point He has. Only God knows. I am only the main character and only the author (God) knows how it’s going to unfold. It will all be revealed to me someday…
And another revelation? Because God has given me a unique story, there is reason for that. I believe in a God who takes people through storms, yet offers a rainbow at the end. There are countless stories in the Bible where God takes people through a rough road, and at the end, He shows Himself faithful. I know God has that for us! When I had my open heart surgery, I was young and had so much to look forward to – graduating high school, going to college, getting a degree, getting married, and then having kids. Only, the last one has taken a drastic turn. What is there to look forward to now? I’ve struggled and STRUGGLED with that! A lot in my life has been unexplainable. But God has uniquely gifted me to serve in His kingdom. He has given me a lot of passions in life and He has given them to me for a reason – to use them for HIS glory and to further His Kingdom. I was reminded today to look at the things I enjoy doing – what makes a good day, a good day? What makes me have the “I can do this” attitude? The answer? Doing what I love. I have a lot of “loves” in life and it’s doing those daily, using what God has given me, and making myself useful.
God has given me a story. I want to use it for HIS glory (wow, that rhymes!) I am having a good day and I’m excited. It was a “revelation” day. I know everyday will not be like this. I will grieve again. I will cry again. But it’s having days like these that I can look back and say I can get through this. There is a light at the end of the tunnel! I am so very thankful for the people God is using as instruments in my life to help me get to these “revelations.” My story is not done…
