When I Realize I Know Nothing
I never realized how much I didn’t know, until I became a parent.
To all the people in this world who have kids in their lives, whether you have children living in your home or work with kids, I am sure you have had that feeling – the more you know, the less you realize you know.
I can’t tell you how many times I have said “I just don’t know…” this past year.
Some of you may have been on the receiving end of me sending texts or messages, wondering if this or that is normal, if this is “typical” and so forth. Sometimes I wish I had a live-in doctor with me so that I ensure the best care for Mazy, but then I remember that God chose ME, to be Mazy’s mom, for a reason. He knew I would have the tools I need in order to raise her (some tools I think are still in fabrication), but He knew and He knows.
As much as I think I need a live-in doctor, I really don’t. I remember my mom telling me that once ya think you have Mazy or a situation figured out, she will change it up on you! I couldn’t agree with her more! The more I think I know, the more I realize the less I know.
THAT is grace.
Tonight as I was getting some things done around the house, I just watched Mazy scoot from room to room. You see, I didn’t think she would move for another month because she literally has had ZERO desire to crawl. Lo and behold, one day she decided to just scoot on her bottom and since then, she is on the go. Who knew? I also just told my mom that I think it’ll be another month or two before Mazy walks, but then lo and behold today, she wants to just walk with me holding one hand, instead of two. I LOVE how this girl keeps me on my toes and keeps me releasing control of what I think I know.
Honestly, as hard as it is to admit that I know nothing sometimes, but lets be honest, I sometimes do know nothing. But what I DO know, is that I am not in control, but God is, and He will give me the grace and tools I need for each day. ONE day at a time.
With Mazy almost being one, we often get the question “she must be moving all around the house now?” As of two days ago, I always said no and it was interesting to see the surprised look on people’s faces, but usually it is followed up by “each kid is different and does their own thing.” Coming from moms who have been there!
And that is why I love – there have been people who have been there before me. That is why I am not afraid to ask the crazy questions! Sometimes I would love to post a question each day and hear every mom’s response. I could have 3 questions a day that I would post, but have you ever felt that way? Wondering what other mom’s have done? Realizing that you really know nothing?
When I say “I don’t know,” bless Mazy’s dear heart, she lifts up her hands as if “don’t ask me!”
God has given me the grace for each day and has given me the answers I need, for each day. When I realize I know nothing, I am reminded of the verse in the Bible that says when you ask God for wisdom, He will give it. He has never failed me.
Don’t be afraid to ask – whether you seek God for wisdom, or even asking a fellow friend. Aren’t we all in this together anyways? Didn’t God put us all on this earth together, for such a time as this?
When we don’t know, it’s okay. God’s grace is there. And so are others who have been there!
