I actually wrote this yesterday, but we couldn’t get internet connection, so I am posting it today.
I told myself I would be real, and so I’m going to be honest. Today is such a hard day. It feels like a lot has caved in on us again. I asked Dan once again, how much more can we take? Yet everytime I say that, I realize God has taken us through each of the times I had said that. It feels like when something feels “solid” in our life, God shakes the ground a little bit and says, not too fast. I felt like took so many steps back yesterday, and it’s just so much to carry. But as Dan and I were laying in bed last night and I couldn’t fall asleep he said, “at least we have each other.” When the world is against us, we have our marriage and ultimately we will always have God on our side.
I was having SUCH a good week, but God KNEW that the end of the week would be extremely hard. He KNEW we would have a huge setback. He KNEW that Dan and I would need each other. Yesterday I was driving and I heard the song by Fireflight, “For Those Who Wait.” We took our youth group to PULSEfest, which is this HUGE Christian concert in Indiana and they were there performing. I had heard this song a bazillion times and sing a long to it as well, but I never really soaked in the words. God, you have spoken to me. God, you have reached out to me through a song. God, we are in a waiting game.