When God Feels Distant…

I have had moments in the my faith journey when I have wondered, “Where are you, God? Do you see what’s happening? Why do you feel so distant?”
Maybe you can relate as well.
Many times in my life, I’ve struggled to pick up my devotional or Bible because I didn’t like what God allowed (like cancer, heart failure…), didn’t agree with it, and ultimately it was ME, not choosing to feel His presence. It wasn’t God who was absent or distant, it was ME. It was me not TRUSTING GOD. God was there the whole time, waiting with open arms, but I wasn’t choosing to run to him.
I don’t know about you, but I want to THRIVE in this life. But in order to do that, I need to embrace Him in HIS will, not mine. I need to TRUST in His will, and not mine. It’s hard to be disheartened with our circumstances when we are grateful. Grateful for God’s presence, grateful for His provision, and grateful for His love.
In pursuing God, we get out what we put in. Just like a relationship – when someone feels distant, we make that phone call to reconnect. God is no different! The only difference is that he has always been holding the phone, He’s just waiting for us to pick it up again.