A Few More Steps Closer In The Journey

Today Dan and I had another appointment at the Fertility Center. We were looking very forward to this appointment because we knew we would gain a lot of information about all the different procedures and also get some more testing out of the way. After 3 hours, those exact things were accomplished and accomplished with success.

Even thought it’s a hour and half drive up to the center, honestly, I enjoy the drive. It gives us time to just talk about anything and everything. Same for the way home too – we debrief every detail TOGETHER. On the way up we talked a lot about being confident in God’s plan for our life. We mentioned how we feel so out of control, yet at the same time, feel so much peace. Is that possible to feel that? YES. We have learned that we LOVE to be out of control :). We talked a lot about donating our embryos, our packet of papers we had to fill out, and just what life has been like lately. Ah, it was so good.

We got there a few minutes early, but we were called right in. Dan had a few tests done and then we met with the nurse to talk about what this summer will look like. Wow. It is quite the process in order to retrieve my eggs! I know that this is such a common procedure and that people do it all the time. There sure are a lot of steps and shots involved though. We are totally okay with it, but I didn’t think it would be so time restrictive. I think it just makes it tougher because we live far away from both of the offices. When it gets closer to the egg retrieval day, I have to go in and get ultrasounds like 5 or 6 times (I think). But at the same time, I am excited that I am monitored closely (like everyone is) because we just want to create the most optimal situation possible. If that means taking all these shots, going to all these ultrasounds, I am 100% okay with it. And the shots I’m honestly not too worried about. I haven’t given myself shots before, but I have packed my the hole that my pilonidal cyst created with tons of gause, so I think I can handle shots (though a little different). And is it wierd to say I am excited to start them? I know, Lord willing, that it’ll be this summer, but I say bring it on! Even after hearing all the risks, I am confident that God will lead us in whatever direction He wants us to go.

We also had to sign a BUNCH of papers, consent forms, go over some embryo donation information, and just talk about what our next steps will be. I have to get some labs done in the next few months, and thankfully Dan was able to get all of his done today! He said that after today he knows his way around that place! He said he was in every nook and cranny in that office :). It is so nice though being able to conquer a lot of appointments in one. Yeah it seems a little costly at the end when they tell you your total, but God provided the finances for it, so we were able to pay it in full. Such a good feeling and all glory goes to God for that!

I will someday give a more detailed description of what all needs to occur when we are ready to start. I just wanted to give an overview of how today went – and I’m sure I will have plenty more to say about it too.

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Brenda ALSO had some tests done today! She passed with FLYING colors! To us, one of the tests could’ve been what Dan calls a “show stopper,” and God only opened more doors! I wasn’t home when she called, but when I heard her message and that it went really well, I got a little teary-eyed. This day just couldn’t have gone any better. God continues to open doors, give us clearance, and give us reassurance that this is the way we are supposed to take. Again, a sense of peace and comfort.

Many of you may think this is wierd, but this was kind of a special moment for me today. They wanted me to take prenatal vitamins. And honestly, I was overjoyed. I know this is so cheesy, but coming from a mentality of knowing I will not be able to experience any part of a pregnancy, but then to be given SOMETHING that pregnant people do, was such an encouragement. After I got home today, I had to go get grocery and you bet, I got that prenatal vitamin prescription filled. To be given just a glimpse of what it is like to prepare the body for pregnancy, gives me a feeling of comfort – comfort knowing that even though this may be the only glimpse of what it’s like to have my own child, but I will take every little piece I can get – even if this is the only glimpse. So, yes, I am taking those vitamins with PURE JOY.

Please thank God with us today, for giving us peace and direction. He continually wows us – Brenda and I were talking about that today as we discussed our appointments with each other. There are so many little AND big things that just keep pointing us toward pursuing this. I just wish I could put every little detail into words (and remember them all for that matter). I wish everyone could just be a fly on…our shoulder 🙂 during all these appointments and just see God at work firsthand. He continually blows us away. We just pray that we do not diminish any of His glory, but only lift Him higher and higher.