How Can You Not See God?

That song (see blog post title) by Leanna Crawford rang through the speakers in our van on the way to school yesterday morning. After I asked my daily question to Mazy, “How did God paint the sky”, this song came on as both of our voices joined together. I’ve listened to that song 100 times, but it hit differently this time around.

Yesterday I felt like a girl who wasn’t just fighting leukemia and heart failure, but someone who God has given a life outside of those two things to as well. It was filled with deep conversations, attending youth group kids’ spring sporting events (yay for being outside!), and I told Dan on the way home, I felt normal today for the first time in MONTHS. I was doing what “normal” people do.

And then to top it off, as if God was saying, how can you NOT see me? Today Mazy is Alex Morgan, the famous US soccer player for her wax museum project at school. She’s been working on this project for months with her classmates, and today is the big reveal.

We normally do not have cable, but we signed up for a trial of YouTube TV during Michigan football’s run at the national championship so we could watch the games, and also for March madness. I cancelled the membership bc the trial was up, but we still had access last night. We turned on the TV, and wouldn’t you know it, the US women’s soccer team was playing Canada in the She Believes Cup. In the middle of the week. We’ve never watched women’s soccer before and it just so happened to be on the night before Mazy represented her favorite soccer player! I just sat in awe as Mazy watched diligently, Alex’s every move. The smile on her face and the awe she watched with, made me think, how could we not see God in that moment? I finally said to her, sweet girl, this is not a coincidence, this is all God.

And this is how I have to remember how God orders my life too. It has felt like chaos with no direction or understanding. Coming off a week that I’d rather soon forget, God ordered Tuesday as a reminder that we are going to be okay because He has it all under control. Circumstances are still difficult, but God reminded me of who is in control of it all.

As you can see by the picture, I’m reading the book “Suffering is Never For Nothing” by Elisabeth Elliot. This too, has been no mistake! A hard read as I process what God has brought us through, but it also opens my eyes to his faithfulness and to his faithfulness is Elisabeth’s life. May we all rest in the knowledge that even though our minds can’t make sense of it all, God’s mind is so much better than ours and He truly does, have it all under control. Even down to the timing of a soccer game.