Light

God has provided a light at the end of the tunnel!

Our official “start” date is now July 29! This past Friday I received my meds (wowzers, it was a big box of just meds!), got our paperwork from our lawyer to review, and set up dates to start the process and what the beginning will look like. I designate days like Friday as “baby” days and boy do we hope there are many more! Didn’t really think we would be so busy with baby stuff last week, but we are becoming more and more eager when weeks like that happen!

We just continually walk confidently, expectantly, and humbling each day. Who knows what each day will bring with regards to it. Sometimes God surprises us with how He grows us in a certain area or confirms to us what we are to do. This past weekend we were at a prayer summit at our church. At one point we all went off to have solo time with God. I felt God nudging me to read the Abraham/Isaac story – when Abraham took him up Mt. Moriah to sacrifice his only son. I reflected and prayed over that passage for awhile. Little did I know that Dan was reflecting on the Hannah/Samuel story when Hannah felt God calling her to give her son (whom she had prayed and PRAYED for) to the ministry at the temple. When Dan and I came back together, we told each other what we read and what we felt God telling us. And God was telling us both the same thing: to be willing to sacrifice whatever He calls us to sacrifice. And at that moment, it was the same thing that  we felt God nudging us both to be willing to give up/sacrifice. In other words, God had confirmed to us a decision we had to make and little did we know that at the same time, God was telling us BOTH, what He wanted us to do. (I may talk about that decision in a later post). We both just stood amazed at what God had done. All we know now, is that we just have to follow in obedience. It is not easy. In fact, it would be easier if we didn’t make this decision – but we feel we would be disobeying God if we did not follow through with it. So to say that we serve a providencial God is an understatement – for God to tell us both at the same time what He wants us to do, though we were separate, just increased our faith all the more. God IS in control. That the decisions we need to make do NOT happen without God knowing and without His input. He DOES answer us, even though it may be through silence at times. No matter what you may be going through, God does have an answer. We don’t always know why it takes so long to hear the answer, but know that God is busy at work, answering it.

So July 29 – I start my first round of shots and then a week or so later, I go in for an ultrasound to make sure my system is good to go (G2G – is what I would say typically :)). Then I believe Brenda will start on her meds too.

I can’t tell you how THRILLED we are to be this close! This past Thursday Brenda and I had some time to pray about it and talk about life and we just stand in complete AWE of what God is doing. I told her that if she had not obeyed the call to offer her womb to us, we would not be the people we are today. If for some reason we had to stop this process today, I would not regret ONE IOTA of this process. I would go through it again in a heartbeat. The lessons God has taught us through this, the people He has connected us with, and the deepening of our relationship with God, has all been so worth it. Again, we just stand in AWE of God’s leading. As we continue to prepare our hearts and bodies for the next steps, we walk in peace and confidence that this is God’s plan for us at this moment.

Please continue to pray that God will SOLEY be glorified and that His name will be known. All praise to Him for the road He has had us travel on thus far – for the rocks and for the smooth pavement.