Thinking About the Future

Today I was thinking about what our future may look like. There is a lot going on in the here and now, yet at the same time, we need to be open to what God is calling us to in the future. We still have a passion for youth and missions. We said on Sunday that we do not want our life to change too much if we were to have kids, where we lose passion for what we do. No doubt our life will change, but we’ve already talked about how we will sound proof the spare bedroom so that a child (or two) can sleep in there while the youth group kids are over. We think about our trips to the Dominican. We have such a passion for the people in that country, yet we aren’t sure if we’ll make it back there. I told Dan that ONE of us needs to go, even if we both can’t. We will make it work.

It’s crazy to think that we might be PARENTS! AH. And that AH is a positive AH. We are excited to see what the future holds. I think back over the past year and I remember wondering why God wasn’t putting it on our hearts 100% to adopt. I almost have to chuckle at that now because little did we know what He had in store for us. We still have to pinch ourselves and tell ourselves that this is all really happening. I walk by kid’s clothes in a store and I am getting excited to buy clothes. I think about what “style” our child would have. If it was Dan’s choice, that child would come out in camoflouge. If it were my choice, that child would come out in maize and blue. Many have said we would have the biggest tomboy girl. We have talked randomly about names – oh boy, it’ll be a long road with that one. We have talked about how we would raise a child. What would we allow our child to do and what won’t we allow? What do we want them to experience? All things that hopefully someday we WILL be able to experience.

But I don’t sit here and dwell on these things. I don’t want to boast about tomorrow, yet we can’t help but wonder. It’s been a blessing to think about what type of parents we would be, as that has helped us understand our youth group kids, the families they come from, and what it takes to be a parent. It’s exciting to think about.

As we move forward, we know God will answer all those questions. We have full confidence that His plan will be worked out to perfection – even though it may not “feel” like perfection here on earth, we know that no matter what happens (child or no child), God’s will, will be done.