Nothing Compares

A selfless love.

That is the only way that I can describe what Brenda is offering to do for us. I have the hardest time putting into words what Brenda is willing to do – the feeling that it gives us. It is unexplainable. Have you ever tried to explain an experience in your life, but had a hard time finding the words to justify the experience? This is the problem we are having! There have been so many times that I have wanted to call her randomly and just say “thank you.” There have been so many times when I have a million thoughts in my head, of gratitude, but I have no idea how to voice them. It is overwhelming.

Imagine. You’ve had this dream. A dream that will effect the rest of your life. A dream then, that was taken away. Then someone offers over 9 months of their life to help make that dream come true again. It is unexplainable. It still makes me cry.

This whole experience continually brings me back to the cross. It has helped me gain a deeper appreciation for what CHRIST has done for me. To have Brenda offer her BODY for us, I can’t help but think about what Christ offered for me. I can’t tell you how many conversations God and I have had – how many times I have thought – wow. This is a representation of what Christ wants us to do for others – to lay down our life for our brothers and sisters. I know that may seem like a stretch – but that is the only way I can comprehend it. As far as I know (though I’ve never been), pregnancy offers a lot of risks. Pregnancy can alter your life for quite some time. Brenda is willing to do this. Brenda is willing to offer her life.

This just makes my cry as I type because isn’t this just a glimpse of Christ’s love for us? Christ came in human form – gave up life in a perfect world, to come to a broken place. To come where there is sin, hurt and pain. Christ endured so much hardship – judgment, ridicule, mocking, backstabbing, a crucifixion. Christ offered to us hope – a renewed hope, through His death. Christ offered to die. To DIE FOR US. I thought I grasped that concept before. But now knowing what it feels like to have Brenda offer up herself for us in order that a dream of ours may come true, how much more is Christ’s death, overwhelming? This whole experience has just been so tearful. All the more, Christ’s death has given us the gift of ETERNAL LIFE. Not just a fulfillment of a dream here on earth, but ETERNAL LIFE. Humbled does not even describe my feelings of this gift (both for that matter). But through this all, it has only drawn us closer to our heavenly Father.

A selfless love. I will never be able to repay Brenda – though I so badly want to. I will never be able to thank or give a comparable gift back. All Brenda and I can do is just fall at the foot of the cross, humbled, that God would choose this for us and choose us for this. Humbled in awe that this is just a glimpse of the gift God has given us through eternal life. By all means this doesn’t even COMPARE to Christ’s sacrifice. By ALL means. But this experience has been a tangible gift of selfless love. And it has made Christ’s gift to us, that much more tangible.

My hope is that through this experience, Christ’s gift may become more tangible for you. I wish everyone could experience the same feelings we are. Then again, I think you can. God reveals Himself and His love for us in ways that blow us away. What have been those ways that God has worked in your life? Those experiences are glimpses into Christ’s love for you. May they draw you ever closer to Him!

The first song that is playing on our blog is called “Nothing Compares” by Third Day. This song kept coming to mind as I was typing – then I remembered that I had it on my playlist! Listen to the words.

NOTHING compares to the greatness of knowing YOU, Lord!