It’s hard to believe that a week ago today, was our last day at our house. A place where so much laughter occurred, yet many tears shed. Though we are still waiting for our house to be rented, we know that God’s perfect timing will be perfect.
Because we moved most of our big stuff out, we did not have a table – but what we DID have, was our ironing board! That became our coffee table for the time being. While on our retreat, we decided that Skip-Bo would be a game we would play everyday, to create a “tourney” so to speak. Dan whomped on me on the retreat, but while in our house, I think I was undefeated. We need to get back into though! Playing Skip-Bo after some of those long days of packing up our house, gave us a breather and some fun.
Our empty house :(. It honestly does not even “feel” like our house because it’s empty. It is no longer our “home” – it’s just our “house.” When I let my mind think about it too much, that is when I get all teary-eyed, thinking of all the memories. But, one thing that God has convicted me of through all of this, is that a house is a material possession. God calls us to not hang onto our material possessions of this world – I have to be willing to give them up whenever God asks. Whatever God gives me, I have to be willing to give back to Him. I have really struggled with that, especially in having to give up our babies. But God called them home, and when God is at work, I know it will turn out beautifully. It doesn’t always feel beautiful right now – but I KNOW God’s promises will hold true: Jeremiah 29:11 says: For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
God continues to give us hope, even when hope feels lost.
God continues to give us rest in our unknown future.
We are fully confident that God will give us a home again someday – meaning a place to do ministry again – a place to love on kids – even though they may not be our own. Until then, we are trying our best to rest. For me it is hard to just sit and relax – it’s hard for me to do that in general – and now after such craziness, to know that it is okay, to just relax. I know in order to be rejuvenated, to jump into ministry again, I need to take this time to just be. Please pray that God will give me the mindset to do so. That it’s okay to just sit and crochet. That it’s okay to read a book. I know it will come – it’s only been a week. But now that we are as unpacked as we can be at Dan’s parents, I feel we can now just “be.” Much easier said than done! Sometimes “being” allows my mind to think about our babies and church stuff, which is hard, but I know we need to keep dealing with it all so that we can find true peace and rest.
Romans 15:13 – May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
